1. |
An Isolated Fragment
02:03
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2. |
The Unconscious Doing
07:16
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On a dark night drive, the rain falls on the slick road
You drink the pain away
You’re careless with life, losing sight
In your thoughts you are alone
Unwilling to face the world
You veer off the hill’s road side
All your past regrets have died
Trapped in this bed without a state of consciousness
Time flies by
The one you love moves on
The white lights in the room expose the darkness that exists in you
Learn to live with yourself to be at peace with your past deeds,
Come to terms with all the anguish caused on this earth,
Bridges burned to no avail, you try to slow down time, you've
Set yourself up once again to fall hopelessly
Open your locked memory
What is real to you?
Is your mind alive or dead?
Your heart still beats on cue
Tonight, your life has changed forever
Once awake a new you
Learn to live with yourself to be at peace with your past deeds,
Come to terms with all the anguish caused on this earth,
Bridges burned to no avail, you try to slow down time, you've
Set yourself up once again to fall hopelessly
Open your heart, welcome the truth
Yesterday is in your mind, it won't survive,
The time for you to live is now, today;
fulfill your soul and fate
Learn to live with yourself to be at peace with your past deeds,
Come to terms with all the anguish caused on this earth,
Bridges burned to no avail, you try to slow down time, you've
Set yourself up once again to fall hopelessly
Open your eyes, look inside
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3. |
Stockholm Syndrome
06:00
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We have struggled down this never ending fall.
All the pain we've felt has been in vain
Growing distances have made me realize
It's just not meant to be
Is this reality? I've always stood by you
And now you're pushing me away
Is there still time for me to change your mind at all?
I'll do anything to stay
Can't you see, that this life is empty?
It pains my soul to let you go
You're leaving me forever more
All the times we shared, now just memories
You'll always be dear to me
My heart is torn apart as I see you walk away
I need you by my side but I can't beg you to stay
A cold, distressing end, as we say our last goodbyes
True love never dies, I'll remember you
All this time you’ve put off everything for me
giving up your dreams so carelessly
I’ve lived through all your pain and felt it just as much
I’m the only one who understands
Can’t you see that you truly need me?
I feel a chill from your cold gaze
A final look upon your face
All the dreams we shared, now forever lost
I’ll never love anymore
My heart is torn apart as I see you walk away
I need you by my side but I can't beg you to stay
A cold, distressing end, as we say our last goodbyes
True love never dies, I'll remember you
I just can't hold the truth within me
There's no hope for us, you have to let me go
I know that you can be strong
You must understand that
I will always hold you deep within my heart
In selfishness I held you back
How can I live without
your love
you can if you
walk away, drift away
from you
My heart is torn apart as I see you walk away
I need you by my side but I can't beg you to stay
A cold, distressing end, as we say our last goodbyes
True love never dies, I'll remember you
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4. |
Zero Sum
07:18
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Life is lost; I have thrown it all away.
My nightmares appear today.
Pain fills the void, finds meaning.
The force demands my surrender
to selfish acts of pleasure;
Lay ruins from the fall.
No resolve, no breakthrough for years on end.
I've forgotten my only friend
"Carry the burden, break the glass" they say,
"It's a zero sum game; a role you play"
Permanence is fading, my world is ending.
Nothing matters to me anymore
I've lost all I adored
Every day I struggle to keep yesterday
At bay; tomorrow I’ll never see.
The moment escapes me.
When did I become just an empty shell?
Memories make my heart break; who's to blame?
My weakness; letting you go
These days are not the same,
Don't know if they will ever be,
I wish new love to grow.
Our past will be set free.
Permanence is fading, my world is ending.
Nothing matters to me anymore
I've lost all I adored
Every day I struggle to keep yesterday
At bay; tomorrow I’ll never see.
"I'm sorry" to my loved ones;
Dead glory of better days;
Dig, bury the life we had.
"I'm sorry" to myself, Yeah!
Permanence is fading, my world is ending.
Nothing matters to me anymore
I've lost all I adored
Every day I struggle to keep yesterday
At bay; tomorrow’s gone!
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5. |
Identity Crisis
08:08
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Cold and alone, no place to call home,
I'm lost in a maze I just cannot escape
I'm drowning in the memory
I've lost my identity, who am I?
How can I move on with my life? I
Need to escape all fear and inner strife
I'm plagued with uncertainty
The brink of insanity, I ask “why?”
I look deep into my eyes, the
Face I see is my disguise buried in lies
All my life I have waited to find out, why I’m here?
All my life I've lived with misery, it kills me this is too much to bear
All my life I've been a shadow to you, kept away from eternal light
Failed state of mind, time seems to pass by
My world keeps spinning, can’t find my true calling,
I walk down an empty road, so far from reality
Where am I?
A dark cloud rains over me as
I am washed into the sea; drift aimlessly
All my life I have waited to find out, why I’m here?
All my life I've lived with misery it kills me this is too much to bear
All my life I've been a shadow to you, kept away from eternal light
I’m stuck between two worlds; a plane of space and time,
I can’t find the meaning, am I dreaming now?
Lack of understanding, suffering at the hands
Of this illusion, this condition of the past
Is this the wrath of dharma?
Am I detached from a design
Laid out for me? Or do I own
The right to choose my destiny?
How can I shape my future? Where can
I find the key to peace?
How can I gain all the control I need
To be in harmony?
I must seek out what is real
If I search, will I find all the answers to my life?
All my life I've lived with misery, it kills me this is too much to bear
All my life I've been a shadow to you, kept away from eternal light
All that lives in my mind is misery, there’s nothing left for me
Drowning in a deep and dark despair
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6. |
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I hear my name called out by the same voice;
"Embrace this shade of gray"
Again I fall into the void of
Emptiness, A trusting masquerade
Hold on to what is left behind,
It was time to say good-bye
Good-bye to a part of me I lost, Ground into
dust;
Revisionist;
This can change the past
This can make it last
Falling down; a dialogue of inner purpose
You're my addiction at service, all else is worthless
You're inside my mind, our struggle is endless
Broken man, drifting out of sight
You are most comforting, relieve the tears
You ease the pain inside
Again, I fall back on your fears
You pick me up; Lie of the great divide
For me it's just another day,
This time I need you to stay..
Falling down; a dialogue of inner purpose
You're my addiction at service, all else is worthless
You're inside my mind, our struggle is endless
Broken man, drifting out of sight
This feeling running through
My bloodstream; pleasure to chase,
awake inside, my mind is open,
Misguided reality..
Falling down; a dialogue of inner purpose
You're my addiction at service, all else is worthless
You're inside my mind, our struggle is endless
I am drifting further into the dark side of life
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7. |
Dimensions
06:51
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Guiding light, where were you when I needed you the most?
Next time it might be too late.
On my knees, repenting for my selfishness and greed
Hear me out, now that I am begging for the answer to life.
I am blind, searching for the answers.
Where is my guide? How could I be so alone?
Lost in a dream, Never-ending maze.
Why am I trapped in this nightmare realm?
Faith, all that's left, and it's fading away
I am forgotten again
Broken hope, it drives me to despair; you’re out of reach
My cries mean nothing to you.
Waking up a hollow man who lost his faith in you,
I am torn, now that I know you don't have the answers to life
All this time, I've walked the line
And found myself to blame for my mistakes
Falling, fading into my darkened mind
My soul is confined. Until my death sets me free
Forgotten ones you've left behind
Abandoned for all time,
In your darkest moments they stood by,
While your life became a lie.
All my cries left unheard
In silence I will remain
All this time, I've walked the line
And found myself to blame for my mistakes
Falling, fading into my darkened mind
My soul is confined. Until death
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8. |
Translucent Inception
06:59
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On the edge of life and death,
Oblivious to see you are your own worst enemy,
Can't run from the hourglass any more
You will face me now I am the only one left
Victim of your own past
I came here to save your soul
You must carry on
With a new sense of purpose
Find joy above ground
Save your-self, we all make mistakes in our lifetime
For us to learn and grow,
So you should value them the most
There’s no turning back in life
You should try to feel more alive
You're hearing yourself tell lies
Cut the ties choose to live, not die
But all that i can see from here
Are scars that have not disappeared
The one thing that i feel is fear,
As if it’s always near
Fight for life, rise from your self-pity,
Trust me
I will not let you down
My eyes have opened, still unclear
Slowly i start to grasp how fragile life can be
On my own with all that i hold dear
What have i done? i can't believe all the things i hear
Victim of my own past
There was no one to reach out to,
I nearly took my own life, all this solitude got the best of me
I am back to square one to fight my own battles,
I must start a new today and re-trace every choice i made
There’s no turning back in life
You should try to feel more alive
You're hearing yourself tell lies
Cut the ties choose to live, not die
But all i can see from here
Are scars that have not disappeared
The one thing that i feel is fear,
As if it’s always near
Fight for life, rise from your self pity,
Trust me
I will not let you down
Help yourself
The strength was always in you
The sun will rise again, no reason for you to stop
I came here to save your soul
You must carry on
With a new sense of purpose
Find joy above ground
Today's yours
There’s no turning back in life
You should try to feel more alive
You're hearing yourself tell lies
Cut the ties choose to live, not die
But all i can see from here
Are scars that have not disappeared
The one thing that i feel is fear
As if it’s always near
Fight for life, rise from your self pity
Trust me
I will not let you down
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9. |
The Balance
08:02
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Nine years have passed me by,
had to heal my corrupted mind
Now I breathe in a peace
my demons have ceased
I leave my old ways behind
Visions had filled my memory
Of a time of much darker days
The road was so long, but then I grew strong
And emerged from the endless maze
There's more to life than what we see
I have died and been reborn in the balance
I never thought that I would see the dawn of a new day
I used to fight through the unknown, for all my lifetime
Now I've found a way for me to be a better man
I’m given a second chance
To fulfill all my deepest dreams
Didn't trust what I've known
I felt so alone
My past life had to be redeemed
I’m ready to live my life
And repent for my years of sin
Erased all my pain
Washed off the disdain
My soul has been cleansed from within
I know the truth now..
I am free! I've found the balance to create a better me
And fill my life with energy
Now I see that life’s a journey, everything is meant to be
A sea of opportunity
I used to have my doubts; had to surmount,
For too long I chose not to listen to myself,
Ignored the honest truth, I was a fool
Then I made the choice that I would not suffer anymore
I am free! I've found the balance to create a better me
And fill my life with energy
Now I see! That life’s a journey, everything is meant to be
A state of true serenity
Builds in me, true love has found its home for all eternity
My spirit will live here in harmony
I can now accept who I've become
My life begins here and now
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